† Tuesday, April 03, 2007
yeah...finally got the motivation to blog...there's like 3 main events since the last proper blog entry...
Chinese New Year
So hows the annual meet-the-relatives-and-compare-children-result-gathering?
was kinda good actually
first day was kinda sad cuz the older cousins were catching up on taiwan serial, the younger group was busy playing in the room and the ones close to my age were vegging out watching tv. so i'm kinda like trying to find my place? i have NO interest for taiwan serial, i juz become the nanny and punching bag in the younger group and i really, really cannot stand chinese live concerts on tv. so i'm kinda like drifting here and there looking for someone i can click with and ended up next to a window feeling very lonely. most of my family is china orientated especially when it comes to entertainment and i'm like the only sole english supporter. and it gets lonely sometimes. we all grew up basically. no common interests, without the liberation and innocence of children we all once had. yeah. very depressing. the other days were better but gone were the times we juz sat and crapped, bout life bout sch bout girls bout boys. all gone. everyone were basically wound up within their own conversations in their own families. no one bothered to reach out, to ask, to care, to know, to share. and there is the rift between my uncle family and the rest. their family is, very crudely put, poorer compared to the others. and they kinda ostrasized themselves. my grandmother, from what i gathered also show favourtism. the adults were ok but my cousins juz withdrew into their shells and bolted the doors. i really missed talking to them. but i didnt dare reach out, to try and establish contact. i juz sat there and emoed to myself. i really, really missed talking to the eldest sister. there are so many things i wan to ask her and to share with her. so much.
Orientation
i was part of the winning family but was with the sci peeps in my group(posted to sci btw) and things juz dun wrk out. i hav very few friends and was very emo cuz i saw my crush in pri sch. its been like 5 years now but my heart is still with her. i guess i juz cant click with sci peeps.
Class Camp(and the make up lessons)
ROCKS. 1A01 so rocks. our class is like a big family now. i guess thts why birds of the same feather flock together. i feel so at good here! its like i've found my home, my family. i guess thts y i cant click with sci peeps cuz i'm a art at heart. whats more, the most of the class, like 80 percent are Christians or Catholics. i knew i was in the rite class immediately. heres a shoutout to Leo, Huda, Tabby and Joel. 1A01 RAWKS! (btw, there is like 32 sci classes VS 11 arts. like, whatever!)
snippets . @ 6:27 AM
