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Catch 22 . +


† Wednesday, July 25, 2007

thanks Lionel! Not that i have any obligation to do it heh, using it as an excuse to blog.

Erm, each player must like type 10 weird or little known facts about yourself. People who gets tagged (muahaha, now to see who actually reads. ok, i have a sad social life...) must write in a blog of their own the 10 weird blah blahand state all the rules clearly. At the end tag 5 people and no tag backs haha.

Now for the dirt:

1. I used to love the food they serve at funerals, havent been to one lately though.
2. I SWORE NOT TO TOUCH MATHS AFTER O LEVELS!!! ended up taking H1. bleah...
3. Used to bite my toenails haha.
4. Still enjoy singing loudly with the windows opened wide but doors shut. Which explains the dirty looks i get sometimes around home...
5. Used to throw really bad tantrums when given fried rice instead of chicken rice. (like smashing the fried rice on the walls or empty in on the floor...) only those 2 though heh
6. Still at war with my sister, with her security pillow and my bolster being the main casualties. By the way, she changed her pillow 3 times now muahahaha!
7. Which brings back to mind my childhood security pillow. one day, my father put his hand on my shoulder and grimly declared: boy, it is time to throw your pillow away. So i very seriously walked to the rubbish chute and laid it gently down before letting go. that was at 7. my sister is now 9. go figure.
8. Used to dig earthworms and catch small grasshoppers and mash them up. i thought it was easier for the school fishes to eat haha.
9. The first few times i microwaved stuff, after starting the heating, i would run to my room and wait for the sound cause i thought it might explode.
10. Still stand way back before starting the stove fire. and jump when the fire starts lol.

so lets see whether anyone responses haha:
-Fiona Quek
-Chow Zhi Xian
-Huda
-Minling
-Stephanie

emo-boy not really happy cause i refuse to post his views for the month lol. it is not comfortable blogging when he sulks beside you so seeya soon!
snippets . @ 7:48 AM

† Monday, July 02, 2007

Bleary-eyed, much confused, the boy awakes, the routine renews:


well, been inactive for quite a while, i owed emo boy some entries so here:

was watching mtv with emo boy yesterday. he broke down watching avril lavigne's when you're gone video. Its been a while since he became so emo and it took me aback for a while. Well, emo boy was thinking about his future when the video played and he was very confused. He had always wanted to meet his better half for very long and always lamented how sad it was looking at couples. But the video broke his vision. He realized that he was very afraid of being alone. There was a old man in the video crying as he looked at the photos of his wife and her clothes.

"What if your wife died way before you did?"

"Well, at least she's going to a better place." I ventured.

"I dont think i can take it. Its like a part of you dying too. It really makes me question would i ever dare to find someone who i can spend my life with, share my hopes, fears, my everything only to watch her die someday and leave me only with memories. She is going to leave a huge gap in my life. If i am going to lead that kind of life, i would rather stay single and cope with the loneliness than the gap she would leave. I'm not scared of dying if it means i wouldnt be alone until the day i die. Man, i hate loneliness!"

And with that, he walked out. I guess he is kinda right in a way. For me, its more of the pain (this sounds evil but i hope its pain) my half might go through since i'm going to die earlier. Why would i want someone to suffer what i'm not willing to go through?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words i need to hear to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

So ends yet another day and the boy still waits, for the other piece of his puzzle, to allow the final transition.
snippets . @ 3:07 AM