† Monday, August 11, 2008
finally .
after 5 years, we've got our colors!
CSM [2007-2008] and CSM [2008-2009]
Pioneer batch [whats left of it]
CSM [2003-2004]
CSM [2005-2006]
CSM 2004-2005 in australia, CSM 2006-2007 sick . ahwell, almost a full turnout .
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i would be suprised if 50th is still in GESS after 10 years .
dragon scouts would never be allowed to fold,
NCC still has too much clout in the NCC HQ and almost all schools have NCC units,
NPCC still acheiving greatly,
SJAB have the best drill squads and would be protected,
GB is outpacing BB in their growth,
and so, guess what CCA group is in the firing line?
the only reason why we're still around is because both the P and the VP are former BB officers and for GESS to retain the UG Niche title, they need 6 UGs .
Alumni is made up of dragon scouts, the TICs in the other UGs have been in their positions for at least 5 years while we're on our 4th TIC in 5 years .
in short, coupled with the dwindling population of GESS, 50th coy has a heck of a trying time ahead .
we could hold out if the boys are dedicated .
we could hold out if the seniors return to help .
and even i'm not prepared to come back every saturday to help out .
i guess the only way 50th can live on is through the lives it has touched .
no matter how much we hated 50th or the boys hated me, we all suffered together or suffered under me .
there are alot of high acheivers around me .
runners, dancers, speakers, writers, actors, singers .
i cant run, cant dance, cant speak coherently, cant write consistently, mediocre acting, and quite a bad singer .
the only acheivement i have is the years i'd spent in BB .
true, i was only CIC in 35th Junior cause ming hong left .
true, i was only CSM in 50th cause ming hong left again and i was the only sec 3 around .
and now, i'm only SCLT cause its a given thing to be promoted after 2 years .
but, i guess, i can take pride that i held on when many others give up .
the only quality i think i have is stubborness, and i have this tendency to hold on just for the sake of holding on .
though the very same stubborness gave me my acheivements, it made me the most hated leader in both 35th J and 50th .
i still cringe when i remember marcus shouting back at me when i was scolding him .
i still cringe when lui siang broke down cause i was drilling them too hard .
i still cringe when people mutter loudly when i punished them .
i still cringe when ernest shook his head when he saw the state the company was in under me .
much of my inner demons is from my experiences in BB .
yet, my acheivements convinces me that i do have some worth in me and i'm not completely useless .
i guess the way forward is to be less autocratic and work on my EQ .
maybe then, i can be a true servant leader .
and maybe, just maybe, i can be captain .
its up to God's plans i guess cause the only way i can serve Him is to help in the BB .
and bring other boys and their families to Christ, as how me and my family was led to Christ through BB .
Great God who knowest all our needs
Bless Thou our watch, and guard our sleep;
Forgive our sins of thought and deed,
And in Thy peace Thy servants keep.
We thank Thee for the day that's done
We trust Thee for the days to be;
Thy love we learn in Christ Thy Son,
O May we all His glory see!
Amen.
snippets . @ 5:31 AM
CSM [2003-2004]
