starting to lose my pushup ability, not good.

anyways a few good news:

1. CFC

all my life, one of the few sources of pride i had was attaining the highest rank possible in my CCAs. and now for my NS life, the CFC nomination which i have been waiting so long for is here. full marks given so getting it shouldnt be a problem and it is a great source of satisfaction that this record is still in the running as I was...

2. Earmarked as a Captain for 50th

when i went back for bb camp last week, this was the last thing i expected to hear. suddenly the officers just told me frankly that i was earmarked to be a future captain and weirdly enough, i was only mildly surprised.

i have a sneaking suspicion that subconsciously i knew how much time being regular in the bb is going to take, not counting the church i cannot skip for the pastors to approve. actually when i was in the bb, being a chaplain was what i was targeting but seeing how screwed up my Christian life is now, i guess that's out of the question.

i'm going to use mr kang as a template then, if God give me someone to spend the rest of my life with (which i'm seriously doubting but cool with it now) then i might seriously consider leaving it or stepping down, if not, God granted, i'd just soldier on till a better captain is found.

3. Going back to church

its been a long while and finally i started going back to morning service. hopefully God will grant me the strength to carry on attending regularly.